My mood at the moment is a strange dilution of outright panic and outright apathy, both of which seem to be struggling for supremacy. When apathy is ahead, I'm bored out of my brain and couldn't care less about the exam I have tomorrow, let alone the other two or the one I had today, but at least I don't panic. When panic is ahead, I can hardly breathe and I cannot work for fear that whichever of my head or my heart has been more battered is going to explode, but at least I know damn well that I should be studying.
Either way I'm not getting my maths done, which is a bit of a shame since maths will be the most fun of my four exams.
This mood is exhausting, evident in the time it took for me to start losing concentration in my exam today. It was wavering after about 50 minutes, and completely gone by 2 hours. That's an hour out of three with little more than a "Hmmm... yeah... kinda looks wrong... what do I do... don't know... hmmm... interesting lights this place has".
I'll endeavour to do some maths... I want to nail it because I know I can.
mate - I'll be praying.
ReplyDeleteits tough to get motivated. its the hardest thing about any of our subjects